Better still...

Feeling good today. No weeping, no worrying, just waiting. I feel ok about this and am hoping desperately that's because I'm strong, not because I'm in denial. Figuring out my options, talking to others, making plans. Saline or silicone is the big one now. I think my PS would recommend silicone. Others say saline is safer. More research to do. I think I'm going with expanders, as much as I hated that option before. I think the outcome will be better, and honestly do not think I could handle the massage that has to happen with the straight to implant option. I mean what if I didn't move them around enough and had to start over? No way. I think I'll be ok with expanders. It won't be easy, but none of this is right? Feeling strong. Feeling positive. I'm going to be OK.